Monday, June 10, 2013
As a writer, sometimes, it is a challenge to decide what word best suits the emotion you are trying to express. My writing often revolves around topics that evoke a variety of sentiments. I love the thesaurus. I love finding alternate ways to describe something. Often, although the meaning is similar, the words bear a slightly different tone. Recently, I looked up the word pity, and found many synonyms: shame, disappointment, misfortune, sympathy, and compassion. These words mean the same thing, but each word has a different flavor.
For example: A glamorous
movie star recently underwent a double mastectomy to prohibit the growth of the
cancer cells her medical history dictated.
As a high risk woman she opted to take somewhat drastic precautions to
avoid the disease. I have compassion and sympathy for a surely difficult decision,
but I also have admiration for her bravery.
Pity is not a word I would use in connection with Angelina Jolie, for
she is a survivor.
Heinous crimes are always in the forefront of our news. The most recent one is the Jodi Arias trial who received a Murder One verdict for the heinous murder of her former boyfriend Travis Alexander. When the jury could not reach a decision regarding the death penalty, Travis’s family broke down in tears. Watching them, I felt empathy that justice had not been given that day. My heart ached for them and for their pain. Pity is not a word I would use in connection with the siblings of Travis Alexander, for they are survivors.
Pity is a word used for situations that appear to be unchangeable. Pity is used for those in a downward spiral, or stuck in their circumstances, stagnant, and unable to find the strength to question, move or rectify. I would use the word pity for the starving children of the infomercials, living in horrible conditions. Pity is induced toward the suffering victims of handicaps or deformities. Pity is also called to mind for children of hostile aggressive parenting or parental alienation. This behavior is not visible like the Save The Children infomercials. This is a secretive occurrence that happens behind closed doors, hiding the atmosphere of revenge, and the methods used to prompt the children to hate. One can only have pity for them at the unfairness of being estranged from a loving parent, and being betrayed by their other parent, who is selfishly utilizing his own anger to promote revenge. What a horrible childhood it must be when the one person you trust is lying just because they are angry that their former spouse who wanted a divorce. My three oldest children have the misfortune to be such victims. They were exposed to continuous vitriolic verbiage since a very young age. If they did not hear it from their father, they would hear it from their step-mother, who was equally misguided and cruel.
This was confirmed years ago when the nine-year old seated beside me at the ballet school, questioned my identity after seeing my daughter wave to me from her dance class. After I told her I was Arielle’s mother, she stated, “Oh. I’ve heard all about you!” She was the niece of my daughter’s step-mother. Why would a 9 year old be privy to any conversation about me? My ex was constantly spewing evil, and I wondered what was going on in that house that allowed young children to hear, and easy remember his sordid words. It was happening in a house where the secrets were concealed.
To date, my three oldest children (now 21, 22, and 24) are fully alienated by their father’s cruel ways. Nevertheless, they have been continuously feeding his narcissistic supply, as he is the money giver. Regardless of what he does, they worship him. They have no sense of speculation. They have no questions regarding his gleeful slander. He has erased any reasoning abilities from their minds. They are, in a sense, malleable puppets, on this earth to do the bidding of a malicious sociopath. Pitiable.